uneventful is better

hmm, first, the obligatory food log:

wed 7/21:

– pancakes

– ox tail soup and leftover kimchi jjigae (i do this for you, lmk)

– shrimp crackers (i can’t stop snacking here)

– slightly spicy fatty pork with the usual at bbq place

– virgin pina colada

– cake with lemon frosting

i forgot to mention that i had haemool pajun on tuesday too. tuesday was the big eating day. dad paid for jae’s b-day dinner with the money i gave him. it made him feel good to treat, so i’m glad.

oh, two days ago, i remarked to my mom that the rice in the rice cooker was unsually small-grained, so she told me that that rice is actually from our farm in the countryside! it is land that has belonged to our family for generations. it felt like it tasted better after she told me that. it’s a good feeling to eat food from our land, that our grandmother planted and harvested.

anyway, there was a big fight yesterday. mostly, it’s because my dad was defaming my sister in an attempt to get me to sell the house in Atlanta and have my mom and brother live with me. actually, i am not opposed to this plan, but not for the purposes he wants. he wants me to send him the “profits”. he’s 55, looks like he’s 40, has only worked part time for the last 15 or more years, and he’s been complaining about not living long and being too old and weak to work for years. please. then he goes and says how no one wants to hear it, but my mom should get off her butt and work. she has been. she’s been taking in whatever kind of work she can, because she feels bad that her child is taking care of her financially. i don’t mind it, actually, except when i worry that i’ll lose my job or i won’t be able to get married or go back to school, but on a day-to-day basis, i don’t mind, because they did raise me. well, she did, anyway. but of course, he has to say things like, i know you don’t like it but you just have to do this for a while longer. oh no way! anyway, i’m perfectly fine with agreeing with everything he says then ignoring him when i get back to the US,  but it’s harder on my sis because she’s living with him.

anyway, he kept saying crap like eini is plotting behind the in-laws’ and jae’s backs to immigrated to the US and leave behind her in-laws, and that they will hate her for it and she’ll tear their family apart, so she got upset, of course. he’s such an asshole. there was a lot of shit he said to her, then i don’t remember much else, except that my sister was genuinely trying to get him to understand how hard she tries to be accepted into their family and how it is jae who is sick and tired of his work and wants a fresh start, not eini who is trying to get them to move. but he doesn’t care or listen. he never has, so this was no different. poor eini. i stopped trying years ago. but i’m more cold-blooded. he kept saying how he doesn’t like her, how no one can like her because of this and that. gee, thanks for letting me stay at your house and working so hard to get me the hell out of jail.

i hate him. i don’t even want to write about it anymore. i’ll prob talk to people about it when i get back, but right now, forget it.